K.B. So I said, I face rude people also and discrimination and it’s not fair. Keep this attitude and the money is yours. Dr. Michele Harper is an emergency room physician and the author of The Beauty in Breaking, a memoir of service, transformation, and self-healing. It’s a treasure. Elise, Wyett, P-you there? Lose this weight and you’ll never be lonely. In 2017, The Huffington Post wrote this amazing article about why we need more women of color working in medicine. So I spoke to her and she told me that she was feeling depressed. So it makes me wonder, other than a complete badass, like what kind of person do you think it takes to be an E.R. And I think that what I’ve tried to cultivate over time is, is an honesty about how I feel and what I’m going through and really being present with it. I believe everything you’re saying. Let’s be human together. After hearing the author interviewed last week on NPR, I ordered "The Beauty in Breaking" with curiosity, but I've been rewarded with hope, and with comfort in CovidTIme. So I’m meeting her at a space in the E.R. :                 What’s beautiful about being broken is the possibility of rebuilding better and stronger and more resilient, in a deeper way. I just felt that. But I just felt you need to ask her because if she’s willing to talk about it, you need to acknowledge this. So let’s be friends on that journey. Please continue. Save my name, email, and website in this browser for the next time I comment. Believe with your whole heart and God will provide. And I honestly just find that absolutely gorgeous to be around. It’s worth it’s worth more. You can connect with Michele on her Instagram, on her Facebook, or on her website. An excerpt from “The Beauty in Breaking,” by Michele Harper. Dr. Harper is one of the mere 2% of Black women doctors working in America — and she’s on the front lines, as an Emergency Room doctor. Like that is part of, that’s the ER job. And that divorce happened right as I was moving to a new city for new job, for this new phase in my life that was supposed to be fantastic. Like, there’s such a vast and important body of literature about how African-Americans and other people of color will receive unequal treatment as both patients and also medical providers. We are. :                 And I love it also and it will probably, I just like as a Canadian, I just can’t understand this part of it, I can’t. You can find The Beauty in Breaking, here. And we continue to speak. :                 For being awesome is my reading of that. Michele’s first book, her memoir entitled The Beauty in Breaking, was published earlier this year. So as a doctor, like, what are some of your fears for folks that you’re seeing come through? And I, it is heartbreaking because there’s so little like in that in that instance, I mean, I can make sure she’s medically OK, I can try and give her resources. And I also knew that there was more to life that was possible. Yes. I mean, OK, so. The Beauty in Breaking is the poignant true story of Harper's journey toward self-healing. So, join me on instagram and facebook to find out more. And you know, that being said about access to care, I mean truthfully it’s that’s one of those things I’m increasingly vocal about and I hope I become super famous so I can use this platform because we got to make some changes. K.B. Account & Lists Account Returns & Orders. Everyone deserves to be treated fairly, equities. I offered her a meal, you know, like even if just for she could have one more meal in that moment or there was a young black woman who she was like 20 but not, you know, now at my age, 20 year olds look like 12 year olds. Believe with your whole heart and God will provide. Then you have to be a little there’s a certain amount of masochism that goes along with the scheduling. And she doesn’t know what to do and has nowhere to go. THE BEAUTY IN BREAKING Dear Ones: Please enjoy my interview with the brilliant and transcendent Dr. Michele Harper (@micheleharpermd) about her extraordinary NY Times bestselling memoir THE BEAUTY IN BREAKING — the true story of her work as an Emergency Room doctor in some of the most under-served communities in America.Dr. How to understand that compassion isn’t the same as justice. I never even thought of you’re an emergency room doctor trying to decide what’s an emergency when right now everything is an emergency. I don’t always feel grounded. It’s a pleasure and an honor to join you and and your community here today. Should be there to not only bear witness, but to amplify the story and be part of accountability because we, I feel I have to change the system so this doesn’t happen to other people. And I could see her just feel lighter in that moment, her whole countenance transformed and, you know, this wasn’t, this was for her I mean, a byproduct of it was that I felt a deep sense of fulfillment because that’s what I was there to do to help her and not just sign a paper, but I hoped this was part of her healing. Well, I listen to her, I felt it was important to listen to her and I said to her what they did to you was wrong, it was just wrong. Yes, it happened. K.B. And then, you know, here enter like magic, I do believe in magic in that I think it can be I do think it can be better than we even anticipate. The self-help and wellness industry will try to tell you that you can always fix your life. K.B. And it’s OK that life isn’t always better. What we have in all its glory to hug and hold, to caress and learn, to feel and grow is simply right here and right now. Still the night but we need the light and I have an idea for how we can spend this together. An emergency room physician explores how a life of service to others taught her how to heal herself. And she said, like I talked to you and I, I feel, I feel better. And still, even after all she has seen and all she has walked through, Michele finds great hope in being broken. So let’s be friends on that journey. And I mean, even if, like the patient I just spoke about, what could I do? And now with the pandemic, the few people she could speak to, she can’t even, she has increased isolation, so of course, I did my screening and of course, you know, I made sure that she had a safe place to live and go. I feel like the deal of being human is that there will be challenges, there will be struggle. to try and do something like at a time when people still can’t get into clinics. Michele Harper has worked as an emergency room physician for more than a decade at various institutions, including as chief resident at Lincoln Hospital in the South Bronx and in the emergency department at the Veterans Affairs Medical Center in Philadelphia. And she was overseas when it happened. And a lot of it just needless, because this should have been handled appropriately with so much pain and suffering from the pandemic one, what I hope will be a positive outcome is that it has laid bare these disparities. Dr. Michele Harper, author of the acclaimed – and timely – new memoir, The Beauty in Breaking, joins us for a powerful conversation about race and equity. I do. :                 Exactly. K.B. Then I was diagnosed with stage four cancer. :                 That hyper awareness, it sounds like, turned into the ability to like, hyper interpret and live almost at the speed at how quickly things are happening. Amazon’s 100 Best Books of 2020. So, you know, I think if someone doesn’t want to be with me for whatever reason. K.B. She feels immense stress and anxiety because the patrons who come in are mean to her. It’s a different kind of spiritual, mental, emotional urgency. Read more about Tara Brach’s idea of radical acceptance and radical honesty, here, In 2017, The Huffington Post wrote this amazing article about why we need more women of color working in medicine. And I remember I was a young teenager and I remember looking at his hand and it looked like he had been bit by an animal. When I see patients, I can’t promise a family necessarily that their loved one with end stage heart disease is going to make it. Riverhead, $27 (304p) ISBN 978-0-525-53738-0. I can go now. K.B. An African American emergency room physician reflects on how “the chaos of emergency medicine” helped her come to terms with a painful past and understand the true nature of healing. It is not trite to say that what we have is right here and right now and when our lives have shrunk to the rooms we’re in, may we find the treasure of gratitude here in the now. K.B. So that is really important to me. :                 And I hope I still hope. And this does come up a lot. But sometimes we meet people who know how to keep their feet under them. Dr. Michele Harper Shares More Than A Decade Of ER Experience In New Memoir Jul 04, 2020 at 4:58 am By. I’m a Duke professor, wine and cheese enthusiast, wife and mom. :                 Man, and the way you’re describing it, I know I mean, I am not in medical world, but I know they call it like the surgical theater. Or people with, record unemployment. :                 Yeah. K.B. Look, the world loves us when we are good, better, best. They need to feel seen and heard and understood. :                 Yes. And just to offer that trust, that’s a powerful thing. M.H. Though Harper grew up a member of the Washington, D.C. “black elite,” the beautiful homes she shared with her parents held a dark secret: domestic violence. And I remember she said that it felt good to speak because she had never told the whole story to anyone like that. How to tell the truth when it's simpler to overlook it. And so she also was depressed. That was four years ago and I’m still here. :                 I think about this all the time. :                 Yeah, that’s right. Michele Harper is a graduate of Harvard University and the Renaissance School of Medicine at Stony Brook University. He said, you’re on your path and you’re doing well, but I, he didn’t feel he was doing well. I’m OK. And so when I saw, getting a glimpse that there are these spaces of potential and hope, I knew that I wanted to be that for other people, that I wanted to be some kind of support for them. I first heard about my guest today, Michele Harper, when stumbled upon an essay she published earlier this year, entitled When This War is Over, May of Us Will Leave Medicine. I’m right here. I really do. How you’re being treated is not fair. When our lives get small, may we grow deep. Dr. Michele Harper discusses her memoir "The Beauty in Breaking" and the extreme stress that health care workers are experiencing due to the COVID-19 crisis. Brought up in Washington, DC, in an abusive family, she went to Harvard, where she met her husband. I think it’s just like part of a hope that we all have is that even now in the midst of this, we can find a strength like that. K.B. You’ve endured like chaos and pain and transition and fear. And given the nature of the professions are not the highest wage earners either. :                 I really like the kind of existential bravery you’re talking about. I want to know that the system will allow me to take care of anyone and to the best of my ability. So now you have this piece where the cracks are highlighted by gold or platinum, because the thinking is we’re not going to pretend this this art hasn’t been through something, hasn’t been broken, hasn’t been destroyed. So, at any moment, we never knew what would happen, it could just erupt in violence. M.H. :                 Thank you so much. :                         This podcast wouldn’t be possible without the generosity of the Lilly Endowment. Required fields are marked *. K.B. It’s not functional, it leads to burnout and so much deep suffering and even kind of a dissociation in order to get through it. Instagram gold. K.B. So these are some of the impacts. I feel also there has to be a certain I mean, I have to tell you, part of the reason I love doing it is in this country where we don’t have access, equal access to health care. In “The Beauty in Breaking,” Dr. Michele Harper shares stories from the field, and how healing patients who’ve trusted her with their lives taught her to care for herself. Michele’s first book, her memoir entitled The Beauty in Breaking, was published earlier this year. So that they can go on. I mean, right before huge moments in your life, you’ve had to begin again in a new city, in a new job, as a newly single person and like and then remake your life. Read more about Tara Brach’s idea of radical acceptance and radical honesty, here. :                 Yeah, that is so powerful when someone in the role like say you’re not, you know, like you’re not playing the role of friend, you’re playing the role of trusted medical professional. And so often they are women and people of color. :                 I do. Stream The Beauty in Breaking by Michele Harper, read by Nicole Lewis by PRH Audio from desktop or your mobile device The canary. :                 Michelle writes so beautifully about the precarity of life. Huge thank you to my team. Thank you. And one thing I always try to be a little positive. But this is a podcast for when you want to stop feeling guilty that you’re not living your best life now. M.H. :                 It sounds like you kind of got hooked on honesty. And she said, I just wanted someone to talk to. M.H. I’m right here. Let’s be human together. M.H. She also discusses the institutional racism within the medical community, and the ways in which poverty and oppression are medical issue within themselves. :                  (Laughter) Totally, no, I didn’t want to sleep. Dr. Michele Harper has worked as an emergency room physician for more than a decade at various institutions, including as chief resident at Lincoln Hospital in the South Bronx and in the emergency department at the Veterans Affairs Medical Center in Philadelphia. It was about the reality of her day-to-day life as an ER doc during the early days of the pandemic. Kate Bowler:                  People always say, find your center, find your center as if you were a seesaw and you didn’t know you were supposed to balance, but right now there is no balance. The Beauty in Breaking is the poignant true story of Harper’s journey toward self-healing. :                 You just you’ve managed intense transitions you have made. The Beauty in Breaking. They just needed a quick medical blessing so they can go on. Yes. :                 Yeah, and, you know, it’s a it’s a process, of course, because that was a survival strategy when I was young. But there’s like there’s such a sense of grounding people get in your account, like your feet are right under you and it allows you to give incredible gifts. :                 I love that you’re describing like a sub category of that profession, which creates justice as part of its, like it has to be part of that process. You know, I talk about this, my analogy is and I’m sorry I’m going to mispronounce this, but the Japanese art of kintsukuroi where pottery has it’s broken. And in fact, they’re a supermodel. I don’t remember self care. And so she’s depressed. “The Beauty in Breaking” is a journey of a thousand judgment calls, including some lighter moments. Author! So those were skills that I developed early. She crawled in straight from her cradle. Oh. We’re not always celebrating a zen like mindset. How to let go of fear even when the future is murky: How to tell the truth when it’s simpler to overlook it. And that’s honestly why I mean, I’m glad I’m there. I didn’t have any information. M.H. And then now when I look back on my childhood growing up in an abusive household where my father was a batterer. And she just looked at me and I said, is there something else we can do for you today? Hi, I’m Kate Bowler, and this is Everything Happens. We want to fasten them to us so they’re safe and near us forever. But truthfully, there’s so little I can actually do for her. OFFICIAL WEBSITE. I felt like if I didn’t, I would be complicit. CW: domestic violence, a doctor discusses a patient’s experience of sexual assault and a patient’s suicidal ideation, racial discrimination. Yeah, this makes sense, I’m totally tracking. K.B. How do you feel like justice is being meted out at that at that level? And this is why it’s important for me to be there, because we need to be there. Scroll. In his effort to restrain my father, my father bit his hand and it was this terrible injury to his thumb. One of the people who where she works is sexually harassing her, and her boss won’t do anything about it. Thanks to first snowfalls and familiar prayers and family traditions. And so it just all ends perfectly. Watch the full episode online. That was four years ago and I’m still here. The Beauty in Breaking is the poignant true story of Harper’s journey toward self-healing. M.H. And so it’s rebuilt then with an amalgam of precious metals. The author, an ER doctor of obvious skill, dedication, and passion, is, as she says "a healer." Huge thank you to my team. M.H. And thank you, dear listener, that we get a minute to do this together. No, it has been. And we’re seeing them disproportionately affected, getting sick, being ill, you know, in an economy where so many people work in what’s called the gig economy. In this exquisitely-written, incredibly humane, and inspiring memoir, she tells the story of how she found healing for her own wounds by becoming a healer of others. Dr. Michele Harper, THE BEAUTY IN BREAKING. I’m glad I’m in the E.R. Each of the patients Harper writes about taught her something important about recuperation and recovery. Ok, so it’s the season of Advent. “ The Beauty in Breaking is a compelling page-turner about how Dr. Michele Harper took a broken childhood and wove herself into a strong, honest, compassionate doctor. Dr. Michele Harper is the author of the New York Times best-selling memoir The Beauty in Breaking, about her experiences as a female, African American emergency room physician and … Ok, so it’s the season of Advent. M.H. Harper, an emergency room physician who grew up in a complicated family, explores how a life of service to others taught her how to heal herself. And, you know, he told me he was into documentary film. But like the way you’re describing it, it sounds like these spaces can sort of just be like the theater of life itself, like everything. That’s the part that will that will give some sense of joy, because everything else in this material world, it comes and it goes like just in the E.R. Eat this and you won’t get sick. :                 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. And she asked me, she’s like, do you think I’m crazy? Radically honest if I’m in the face of death or pain or suffering or the end of relationships, being present is what keeps me grounded and rooted in the moment. Apple Spotify Castbox Google Play RSS. Thanks to friends who know us better than we know ourselves sometimes. I think I can do this. And we were close, I mean, to this day, I think he’s a good guy, but clearly it wasn’t meant to be. This podcast wouldn’t be possible without the generosity of the Lilly Endowment. Then I was diagnosed with stage four cancer. Photo courtesy of Penguin Random House. And and, yes, I also write about it because while she’s struggling to survive, to thrive, to have the life she deserves, people like me were there to help her who aren’t in the midst of that acute struggle. :                 No, I like it. Lose this weight and you’ll never be lonely. And I want to ask you all about your story in a minute. The Beauty in Breaking: A Memoir Michele Harper. To find our own safety and way through that and in many ways, that cultivated for me, well honestly, being an E.R. K.B. :                 Well, that’s one of the things that I feel that this pandemic has laid bare. Each of the patients Harper writes about taught her something important about recuperation and recovery. Thanks to the caring professionals and essential workers who are asked to give so much right now. I guess I could tell the truth about a lot of things. M.H. Kate Bowler:                     Hi, I’m Kate Bowler, and this is Everything Happens. Like everybody deserves health care, everybody deserves a living wage. I was pretty much staying late to help the other doctor who was overburdened and she was fine, so I could have been in and out of there in five minutes. Buy a cheap copy of The Beauty in Breaking book by Michele Harper. Thank you so much for being here. And it’s OK that life isn’t always better. Written by: Michele Harper. But but also existentially being yourself. That little girl skipped out with her father, that family, the family with the man coding, we don’t know if he made it or not, but somehow in that space, they were going to have to find a way through it to find their life forward with or without that family member. How to understand that compassion isn’t the same as justice. Your email address will not be published. You’re like the big temperature taker of society. She recounts the fears of her childhood and how those same feelings of brokenness and abandonment returned when her husband left her, and how she copes as a Black female doctor. That’s not my take on life. K.B. where, you know, thankfully, she had been reassigned. It is. A little bit of gratitude for this gorgeous, fragile life. K.B. Meanwhile, her grandmother died. Like we need more women and people of color and different backgrounds, different socioeconomic statuses and disabilities, because the patients we see need that. It’s been so fun spending time with you. I like totally obsessed with this topic because I think we both don’t believe that things are always better, but that things can still really be beautiful. Do they need to be admitted to hospital or not? It really does feel intensely validating to be able to have someone in an official capacity be able to say like this is injustice. M.H. Jessica Richie, Keith Weston, Harriet Putman and J.J. Dickinson. 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